I Miss Getting My Freak On
Lately I haven’t exactly been posting a lot of heartfelt or touching reads for you to enjoy and that has not been due to lack of content or ideas but more the fact that I have barely had time to catch my breath.
I have been so busy finalising assignments and studying for end of semester exams that everything (and I mean everything) has been put on the back burner. Sex is being traded for sleep (and that loved midnight nudge is dreaded), wine/vodka is traded for coffee (even on a Friday night) and meals are being replaced by sugar hits to keep me going. I cannot remember the last time I played at the park with the kids (to be honest I hate going to the park anyway but that’s a whole other story, the kids love it), I cannot remember the last time my husband and I went out for dinner alone or with the kids, the last time I had a proper conversation and wasn’t trying to multi task (study and keep up with the conversation) or even played artists with the kids, etc.
I feel like I haven’t ‘REALLY’ spoken nor had any in depth conversation with my husband in months or given him my undivided attention. I feel terribly bad about this as there doesn’t seem to be a happy medium at this point. It’s studying my absolute arse off and completely kind of ignore everyone else around me or fail. Neither option is favourable to me!
I have completed 2 exams and to my surprise received 100% in both!
YAY me!!
But as you can see it has come at a price, one that will be paid back 10 fold and may or may not come across as smothering when I’m finished my last exam.
On Tuesday, my last assessment for this semester will be held. It is extremely difficult and I’m not sure how I will go. I’m aiming for 50% (just so I can pass). I have paper stuck all over the walls of key points of information so that as I walk from room to room some of it may sink in. I’m not very optimistic but all I can do is try.
I am willing this study bullshit learning and mind expanding experience to be over, whose stupid idea was it for me to go back and study anyway? Oh right, it was mine.
REPEAT AFTER ME:
This will be beneficial for you in the long run!
This will bring opportunities for you when you are ready for them!
You have challenged yourself and you have succeeded!
When you complete this you can return to loving that midnight fireworks inducing romp and matinees!
(If that’s not encouragement I don’t know what is!)
Until next time, please have a stiff drink and in depth conversation for me, for yourself and most importantly go and get your freak on!!